Not a fan of any micro pistol. I keep a 1911 and Surefire handheld light on my nightstand. If I need to go out at night I carry a full size pistol with a wml.
My wife of 55 years is fighting cancer and I have a few serious health issues. Like you the folks on this forum have been supportive helping me to be more positive in my thoughts. Hang in there Oldmountainman.